Intro

I guess this is just to say exactly what this page is for. It is, as the title suggests, an outlet for me, and as the address suggests, a place where i can be myself. For once. Okay, this page is directly linked to James's page (http://thisurlbelongstome.blogspot.com/) so if you rly want to understand everything here you should read that 2. The first thing i will say is that i am a very confused person. I have no idea what is going on just now, but it is pretty fucked up. James is my boyfriend, and i hope that one day he will be a lot more than that, but (if you don't wanna take the time to read his page then here is a brief overview:) James is depressed. Seriously so. and it is gonna take a while for things to be normal with us again. I don't mean that my feelings for him have changed, because if anything I love him more than ever, if that was ever possible (sry ppl, this rly isn't a love story). But people will look at us differently. My parents are the world's biggest assholes. My mum is the worst. She keeps asking me if I know what I'm taking on with James. I know EXACTLY what I'm taking on. I'm taking on the person that I care for more than the rest of everything put together, but right now he seems to have forgotten that. James, if you read this I hope it sinks in once and for all: I love you, and nothing will ever change that. Everyone else, take note: I love a crazy guy. (Sorry James, but you keep saying it so i guess i gotta accept it.) So this is my outlet for all that wierd stuff that i now have to cope with. Right now... I'm upset. Mainly because James seems to have lost faith in me, and thinks I would leave him because of what he has become. I WON'T. Secondly because he has lost faith in himself, and what he is able to become. I WON'T. I'm here, supporting, even if I'm not with him all the time. Because I have to be. But I can't help but think I need some support too. I'm not crazy. I'm not depressed. I don't want to kill myself or do drugs or drop out of school and become a bum on the street, coz none of that would help. But I need to be believed in by the one person that I believe in. Is that so wrong?